If I were a computer, I
wouldn’t expect from myself to be a digital Dorian Gray version of my humbly
imperfect humanness. Neither would I expect from it to be a confirmation of my
erroneousness and, thus, humanness. Unlike the imagined robotic variant of
myself, I have embarrassing, illusory hopes—half-hidden even from myself—that one
day there will be a laptop that does not freeze, a desktop that does not eat
files, a printer that does not run out of ink. I shamefully cherish a desire
that that day were now.
Most of the time I forget
about such secret aspirations. And keep living. Partly as a human version of my
digitalized mirror image. While in that hyperworld, I wonder if not to be hip
is to be hyper now. In that democratic fairy tale called the web, one might
experience a tremendously liberating effect of the communication freed from a
sanctioning Father’s voice. Hence, one is free to chat, search, play, prey,
loot, seduce, flirt, have sex, read, create…you name it…on the Internet.
In an age when faith in
science evokes a gambling spirit, unbelievers sinfully seek answers on the net.
Moreover, technology in a broader sense offers reasonable responses for
numerous conundrums. jan jagodzinski, Youth
Fantasies: The Perverse Landscape of the Media (2004): “Consumers are told
which foods are likely to cause cancer, and then which foods can help prevent
it! Given that nobody knows for sure, we invest more and more authority in
technological solutions like Viagra, and mood drugs like Prozac to avoid
responsibility” (182).
But then, one wonders why
that authority recentering is necessary to comfort one’s doubtful soul. Isn’t
the whole enterprise called hyperreality so appealing precisely because it
frees one from a sense of authority? Eerie dialectic, indeed. Shifts nothing
short of the creepiness of the land of shadow readers and robodogs in Jeff
Noon’s novels. Inhabiting hyperspace bears semblance to wandering through the
labyrinth of empty spaces in the mind deprived of dreams in Pollen (1995). The air we breathe,
marbled with an invisible telecommunication jungle, is sometimes heavy. As if saturated
with the particles of the dispersed vurt hayfever bomb.
Seemingly, terra digita is
the land of opportunities that requires no strenuous moral efforts. And yet, it
is hard to imagine effortless round the clock hyperreal networking. Even if freed
from all ridiculous ethical burden, threatening to overshadow the light from
the screen, at least one unpleasanty
remains: that one has the body. jan jagodzinski: “ Such technology has
made all of us walking cyborgs. So where is the ‘No!’ to be found?” (186).
In this cyperspace there are
yet other cyberspaces. And they are this one, called vurtuality. Not unlike silence that is not one in Stewart Home’s
novel Blood Rites of the Bourgeoisie (2010).
Interaction stripped of speech. Communication relocated in the 1&0
linguistic sphere. Literature rendered abstractLiterature is dead. Time and
space died yesterday. You eat dead food, you fuck dead men, even your words die
in your mouth. Your sentences are rolled into the ebbing waters of modernism
and then wash back like a bulimic’s forced vomiting. (10)
:Devouring an undistinguishable amalgam of cultured
milk, broth, coleslaw, sunny side up, cottage cheese, pizza, ketchup, lasagna,
slow-rinsed lobster, wieners, industrial
amounts of garlic ice cream cake, baked catfish, chocolate mousse, tiramisu,
wild salmon pancakes, gravy, matches, overcooked chair bottoms, porridge
immemorial, scorched barn’s roof, walls of an ancient temple, frames of the
pictures from the family album, curtains from the cellar, covered with thick
layers of dust, rusty oven, stunned skeletons, massacred buses, busted clouds:
Literature is dead. Time and
space died yesterday. You eat dead food, you fuck dead men, even your words die
in your mouth. Your sentences are rolled into the ebbing waters of modernism
and then wash back like a bulimic’s forced vomiting. (10)
:And
then me darkish camera and then me sunrise and then me coffee/cigarette and
then me voddy /vodichki/vodochka and then me supergreen food and then me
oatmeal pie and then me seaweed crackers and then me mulled apple cider and
then me crunchy white chocolate-spiked biscuits and then me then me cherry
jelly and then me strawberry tart and then me coconut-vanilla ice cream and
then me candy bar and then me milk chocolate and then me dried currants and
then me vegetable garden soup and then me eggplant zucchini pancakes and then
me Caesar salad and then me royal rice pudding and then me beefheart-stU and me
peach yoghurt and then me and then me cheese cake!